May 3rd, 2006.
So, a new chapter in my life, and new journal. I've never been much of a writer, but once my life took a sudden turn for the unpredictable, I found writing down my thoughts helps me to organize my mind.
The war may be over but if there was anything I've learned it's always be prepared. I think Snape might come back from the grave should I not continue to practice Occlumency. No matter how terrible at it I was. That's another thing. A lot of people died yesterday. Snape just being one of the many. Remus Lupin, Nymphadora Tonks-Lupin, Lavender Brown...Fred Weasley. You know, not long ago I thought maybe he was the one. That we'd be together forever, but it turns out that wasn't in the plan. With my luck, maybe I should have seen it coming. I just...I wish I had gotten to ay goodbye. I wish I could have saved him. My friends always did say I had a Hero complex. And poor Teddy! My godson will never know what wonderful parents he had. Hopefully Andromeda, the Weasley's, Hermione and I will be enough. I just hope I'm around long enough. Being a demigod doesn't guarantee I'll be able to see him grow up. I could die at anytime, but I'm not going to go easily. I'll fight, if not for my own future than for Teddy, and Percy - my brother. -- Melinda Potter. |